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Discovery Sessions
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Discovery Sessions are a personal Q&A to see how we like working together.
- What has led you to here?
- Do you have a goal from a coaching relationship?
- Any mental health history? And do you also have a therapist, psychiatrist, or other mental health practitioner helping you meet any medication needs? (See also: FAQ)
Discovery Sessions are only necessary for first-time clients. They are just 20 minutes. If you want, you can prepare for a Discovery Session like this.
Signature Offer
The Embodied Faith Transition
3 Months of Tailored Support
Weekly 1-on-1 Coaching
Personalized Nurturance & Tools
Disillusionment with the Church is very common.
40%
OF missionaries leave within 6 months of coming home
72K
-or more- people resign every year
75%
of baptized converts leave within 1-5 years
46%
-or more- people raised in the church leave by age 40
You are not alone, but…
…when you are trying to get dressed and suddenly feel so icky in Garments, but also so awkward without them…
…when you are breaking your knees with prayers that never seem to go past the ceiling…
…when you are staring at your Book of Mormon and all you see are horses, steel, chariots…
…when you want to connect with family but only get jabs about your worthiness…
It feels like you are.
Meet Your Coach
Hey, I’m Laura
My deconstruction happened in 2020-21 (yeah, that’s right. Covid-times. It was rough). My husband and I made it out together but during those years nothing felt certain. I was going on pure unjustified faith that if I just kept being honest, eventually I would make it out of the weird mind-labyrinth I was in. To this day, I don’t “know” who or what was guiding me through that process. I can only say that I had the sense of being “held” all the way along.
That kind of spiritual deconstruction doesn’t happen for everyone–and it doesn’t need to. But the fact that it happened for me taught me how to nurture authentic spirituality. My deconstruction also honed my critical thinking for recognizing the manipulated-spirituality that is used by cult groups. Now, I support clients in both exercising their intellect and finding their own expansive, taproot of spirituality.
Embodied Faith Transition
Get Grounded & Set Your Course
Slow down, get clear, connect to yourself.
Nourish Yourself
Find new sources of spirituality.
Meet Your Pillar of Fire
Your Rage is a sacred guide.
Spice Things Up!
Experimentation should be fun, not scary.
Let Love Win
Build your soul a new home based on your values and the people you love.
I get it, committing to a Faith Transition is hard. It’s not that you “don’t believe” anything…
It’s that the Church you thought represented those beliefs turns out to have been based on greed, lies, sex, vanity, and power: all the things it told you were wicked and abominable.
But it also told you that it was perfect–a perfect system. It could never go wrong, never be led astray. And if you submitted, obeyed, lied for the Lord, did as you were told, everything would work out for you too. You would be chosen. You would be exalted. If you could endure all the lies that Anti-Mormons say, even the ones that turned out to be true, well then…Everything would be okay. Everything would be well.
Everything would be well in Zion.
But, are you well?
Can a community based on lies, secrets and the subjugation of women to patriarchy (among other groups) be well?
Is this what “well in Zion” looks like?
In the Heart of Zion in Utah…
1/3
People diagnosed with depression
685+
Suicides in Utah each year (2x NATional Average)
2nd
Worst mental health Access in the Country
11K
average number of domestic violence cases every YEar
Every stat shows disproportionately
more risk for women and children.
The scope of the problem extends beyond Utah. The whole Mountain West suffers severe mental health problems.
It’s no coincidence that the “suicide corridor” of abnormally high rates of despair overlays exactly across the places where there are the most Temples, the most Church buildings per capita, the most Church members holding political and fiscal power, and where most Members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints live.
You can read more about Utah’s mental health crisis from this article by the University of Utah.
“Sure, it’s tough but I can’t have a Faith Crisis. That would mean giving up my Eternal Family…”
Let me tell you a story
In 2021, I was sending out a Swan Song on Facebook…
My husband and I were still working on finding our balance, and I was still wrestling my own indoctrination daily. To process what we were going through and to try and reach other people we loved too, I did a variety of art & posts, processing both my own pain and the pain that I assumed they were feeling too. And despite the overwhelming evidence against the Church, I still found myself haunted by this question:
What would happen to our Temple sealing? Our forever family? Our eternal marriage?
I thought about this a lot. Then I wrote this:
“Here’s something to consider:
–> If Joseph et al. were/are telling the truth about Eternal Sealings, etc. then everything will check out–
God’s house is a house of order.
God can handle all kinds of messy people.
You don’t have to be afraid of learning anything.
–> If Joseph et al. was NOT telling the truth, then it will still be okay because…
the idea of Eternal Families will still be as real and valid as it was before, except you will have more information.
In other words: you don’t have to be afraid of what is.
It just…is.
If the Church’s idea of Eternal Families is real, then it is. If it’s not real, then, it isn’t.
Either way, knowing only helps calibrate our decisions.”
The truth is that if the Church is not True, then
Church leaders never had power to give or take away your family.
And that means that the spiritual confirmations, significance, and love you found in your marriage, parenthood, connections to ancestors and more are all yours to keep
forever
no strings or aprons attached.
You can’t lose what was always yours.
“I don’t know how to stay, but I can’t imagine leaving either.”
Me too.
The Church teaches Members to assume that people in Faith Crisis “just want to sin,” that they are “lazy learners” or that they “want an easy path.”
In reality most of us never had any intention of being anything but faithful. And we have never taken a harder path than admitting…we were wrong.
What broke your shelf?
Was it the CES letter?
Someone you loved coming out of the closet?
Was it finding out about the Church’s hoard of billions?
The anachronisms of the Book of Mormon?
Was it discovering Joseph’s Nauvoo sex-ring?
Or the intuition that you are more than a cog in an obedience machine?
Our stories are different. But they are also the same. We all trusted a system that really really let us down.
You don’t just land lightly from a trust fall like that.
It hurts.
And even though I’m really not the person you need to hear this from: I’m sorry. You deserved better. You deserved honesty. You deserved respect. You still do.
So, when you say you can’t imagine leaving, I wonder:
Is it true?
You can’t imagine anything better than you and your family being strung along by a duplicitous corporation for life?
Maybe that is true for you. Maybe it isn’t. In my experience, the real lack that most people experience in Faith Crisis is a lack of space and safety. When you have space and safety to use it, your imagination is limitless. There is a unique future for you and your loved ones that is free, grounded, connected, and aligned with your values.
If you are like most people leaving the Church, your Faith Crisis is happening because you discovered the Church was not aligned with your values. That means that before your Faith Crisis, you already had an imagination of living that aligned life.
In other words, I suspect the real problem is not your creativity, but the fact that you need to grieve first.
As it turns out, the Church was never aiming to fulfill our values, was never aiming to make our families happy. We members of the Church were always and ever only the means to an end.
And that end was: sex, money, power, real estate, political positions, etc.
And they succeeded–the Church is living its values. It has successfully cocooned itself in a hierarchy that takes from the poor to give to the rich, takes innocence from the child to feed the lust of the leader, takes land from the community to build another lavish, empty Temple. They are getting what they wanted.
But are you? Do you have the life you wanted?
Are you living a life that shows your values?
What would life look like if you stopped fulfilling their dreams and their values and started fulfilling your dreams based on your values?
“I’ve already wasted my life in this religion, so what’s the point of a Faith Transition?”
I hear you.
Faith Crisis can feel overwhelming.
When I was in the thick of things, I found myself writing over and over again in my journal, “I feel like I’m drowning, I feel like I’m drowning.”
No matter how logical or practical or obvious it might seem, Faith Crisis forces us to face the fact that we are innocent little mammals to the core. We want friends, we want physical safety, we want pats and praise, we want emotional security.
So, when our logical reasoning or a spiritual awakening plops a Faith Crisis in our lap and presents us with the opportunity to expand, get un-stuck, to make a better future for ourselves and our families, it is super normal to look at that gift and say, “mmmm…but do I have to??”
The answer is no, you don’t have to. Unlike the Church, your Faith Crisis will not insist on absolute obedience. 😉
But think about this: 10 years from now, will you be happy knowing that you turned down the invitation to become a truer version of yourself?
There are challenges on the path of Faith Transition for sure. But there are also challenges to ignoring your calling into integrity or greater purpose. The question isn’t whether you will have to do hard things, the question is: what kind of difficulty would you like to face? Which choice shows more of who you really are?
Which path represents more of what you really want?
Sometimes people say, “Do you know how old I will be by the time I learn to really play the piano / act / paint / write a decent play?”
Julia Cameron, The Artist’s Way
Yes . . . the same age you will be if you don’t.”
The Church teaches us to think in absolutes. Black-and-whites. Good-and-evil. Either your time in the Church was essential for eternity or it was a total waste.
But what if your time in the Church was not wasted?
What if you learned what you needed to learn from that environment and now you are graduating? What if your Faith Crisis was not a failure, but a door unlocking?
What if you let yourself keep every good thing you got from your time of believing and you got to walk through that door to your new life too?
You actually can do that. The Church cannot claim anything inside you that you want to keep. This is your life, your experience.
You get to choose.
What I believe now:
Your Faith Transition didn’t come to you randomly. It came because you were ready to open the door to the wild world of opportunity that has been waiting for you all along. It came because you asked for a way to make your family healthier, braver, more connected, more spiritual. It came because you deserve to live your own life, not one that was scripted for you by 19th century magicians and outdated gender politics.
You deserve that. Your partner, kids, and future deserve it too.
Faith Transition isn’t a destination by itself. It’s the passage through which you emerge into something–or someone–else. When you’re emerging from the chrysalis of Faith Crisis, you don’t need more checklists. You don’t need a replacement patriarchy. You don’t even need more Mormon history.
You have everything you need to tend your own wounds, to disentangle yourself and your family, and build a new life from the rubble of the old.
Let’s set you up for success in this next stunning stage of your Life’s Journey.
Coaching
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Discovery Calls are no-obligation 20-minute calls. I want to make sure that we will both enjoy working together. In this call, I would love to hear about where you are in your Faith Transition, if you have specific goals already, and what has drawn you to Embodiment Coaching with me.
There are no high-pressure sales and no worries if you change your mind. After the call, I will follow up by email about whether I feel like I could help you reach success and an invitation to schedule your first session or with other recommendations.
The Embodied Faith Transition Package
An intensive personalized coaching container to midwife you through the chrysalis of Faith Transition. Over the course of 3-6 months, we will meet weekly or bi-weekly. You will have 12 60-minute Embodiment Sessions to schedule, as desired, as well as 2 30-minute SOS calls for when the stuff hits the fan. Stuff we’ll do:
- allow your embodied wisdom to guide and ground your transition,
- set boundaries within and outside of yourself
- strengthen your embodied intuition in daily life,
- transmute relationships to make them healthier, closer, (and maybe spicier?) than before,
- practice sustainable spirituality,
- regulate your own nervous system,
- excavate your identity beyond the cult-conditioning,
- authentic self-expression and creativity practices
This package is designed for full individual support. You also have my full attention in-between calls through email and the 2 SOS calls (expect a response within 1 weekday) for the 3-6 months of our container. All calls must be used within 12 months of purchase.
- Individuals experiencing major upheaval or disorientation with their Faith Transition.
- Those worried about how to experiment or reconstruct life after their belief collapses.
- People who already left the Church in some ways but want to thoroughly deconstruct the ideologies and recover from attachment wounds.
The Light Embodied Faith Transition Package
A light to moderate boost for your Faith Transition Journey. This package consists of 6 Embodiment Coaching calls and 1x 30-minute SOS call for when stuff hits the fan. In-between-sessions care through email on workdays. All calls must be used within 12 months of purchase.
To get some light support, schedule the sessions once a month.
For moderate support, schedule sessions every 2-3 weeks.
- Individuals wanting moderate support
- Students, young adults, or others who have social networks of support and just need periodic support.
Laura has a warm presence that is nurturing and intuitive. If you’re seeking a Feminine Embodiment Coach to help you connect deeply to your wise body, I’d highly recommend working with Laura.
I feel so safe and impeccably cared for in Laura’s container. Her reflections are rich, nuanced, and woven with beautiful poetics and imagery. Working with her feels like having a magical guide journey me through my own personal mythology. I always leave our sessions feeling both charmed by the mystery of my life’s unfolding, and deeply rooted in my true essence.
